Is her middle name. She is almost 4 months old now and has revived my drive and desire to be all that I can be. She came on the eve of my deceased mother’s birthday. The pain, although horrendous, was worth it. And oh, the pain….. I wanted to have a natural unmedicated birth, like my mother did.. Well I got what I wished for and was left wondering, why? Why would someone do this ? lol After a couple weeks of blue Dermoplast, Neosporin, spray on hydrogen peroxide, witch hazel pads, ice pack pads, creepy mesh undies, warm water squirt bottles and the numbing cream, I finally forgot the intensity of the pain. My beautiful daughter is everything amazing. Her laugh is pure joy, her little hands, little face, amaze me. Her sweet smelling breastfed poop doesn’t make me cringe. I love everything about her.